My new painting, “You can go on home, you got what you need”
I recently stumbled upon a quote attributed to one of my favorite authors Jack London right before his death in 1916: “I would rather be ashes than dust! I would rather that my spark should burn out in a brilliant blaze than it should be stifled by dry rot. I would rather be a superb meteor, every atom of me in magnificent glow, than a sleepy and permanent planet. The function of man is to live, not to exist. I shall not waste my days trying to prolong them. I shall use my time.”
The use of my time has been heavy on my mind the past week. I just celebrated my 35 birthday. I always get a case of the birthday blues, because, around this time of year, I wonder, am I on the right path? Am I doing all that I should or could be doing? Am I wasting time or using it to the max?
I’m guessing this thought is shared by many of my friends during these turbulent times — as we all seek purpose and strive to better ourselves, as neighbors, friends, citizens, activists, artists, family.
When I voiced my concerns to my friend, the uber-talented musician Chance Hunter, he laughed at me and then told me not to be so hard on myself all the time, to realize that I have been a painting robot lately and take some solace in that.
Chance also pointed out that always worrying about not doing enough can also be a waste of time in itself.
And he’s right about that. Worry and fear are not liberating forces, nor will they push us anywhere but down.
I’m a big believer in drinking life to the dregs. I just want to find some time and space to figure out what that means.
And Jack London’s quote also made me think of Tennyson’s poem“Ulysses”:
Tho’ much is taken, much abides; and tho’
We are not now that strength which in old days
Moved earth and heaven, that which we are, we are;
One equal temper of heroic hearts,
Made weak by time and fate, but strong in will
To strive, to seek, to find, and not to yield.
This ode is to the passion behind seeking greatness, to a character who went to great lengths for adventure. And I think we should all look to achieve, to make positive change big and small — and to engage in a life where we are truly alive, awake and aware.
2 thoughts on “Using time”
Loved this piece. Thought you might enjoy another blogger’s take on the “time squeeze” dilemma. http://www.raptitude.com/
Thanks so much for reading and commenting! Just read the other blog you mentioned — very interesting – -thanks for sharing!