My new painting, “What a planet we live on, that allows us to love”
On August 1, my friend Mac wrote an interesting post on my Facebook page:
The best day of your life is the one on which you decide your life is your own. No apologies or excuses. No one to lean on, rely on or blame. The gift is yours, it is an amazing journey and you alone are responsible for the quality of it. This is the day your life really begins.
The message was strangely right on target. Just the day before, I received a work-related phone call that drastically changed my life. Due to budget cuts and media mergers, I found out I was losing most of my income source.
At first, I was angry, then hurt. Next, I felt a sense of relief. I woke up in a panic the following few days, worried that I was way behind on my to-do list. Then, I remembered that my to-do list had been dramatically reduced.
Now, I worry about getting by. I think being a professional artist is basically a myth. The “art world” often doesn’t take painters seriously if they have a day job. But unless you have a trust fund or a wealthy partner or overly generous parents, not having a day job for an artist means not having a place to sleep or food to eat.
I have always had multiple jobs and struggled to make ends meet. I’ve painted during the hours that I didn’t have to work. While I wish that painting could be my one and only, I am also keenly aware of the reality of not having an income.
But I have been working so hard for the past few years that I have lost touch of the quality of my life. I want to take a chance to mold my days more around what I love to do. And I welcome a new beginning.
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I wonder if maybe you can treat this time like a blank map……..to savor this openness (even in its fright) and ask yourself: what do I really desire? And what can I do to achieve this?
I wonder if you can treat this time as a blank map. To ask yourself: what do I really desire? Even in this fright of endings, there are beginnings. So, what is it you want to manifest?
Brava, dear one! I life lesson learned so early. My congratulations to you on the discovery.
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Thanks Kathy!! We’ll see how it goes 🙂